First off, I would like to thank everyone for their condolences during this difficult time. As I stated on Saturday, my mom had not been well since early January. Late that month it was discovered what the issue was (which is a private matter that won't be shared in public) and since then it was an arduous experience for me and everyone else who loved her. She was in and out of hospitals with that problem and other medical maladies. The last time I did one of these-back in the middle of June-I alluded to some things that can finally be revealed now. Mom was the person I visited in the hospital back in March; when I stated that for a few days in May I went out to restaurants with various people, it was with my dad, two sisters, and mom's friend that she had literally known most of her life. They all came down because we were told at the time that she only had days left, and just entered hospice. Somehow, my mom lasted for over two months until Saturday was finally the day. Starting June 1, I was able to see her for a few hours a day, which was comforting.
In case anyone had any doubt, having to deal with this AND the horrible events of this year (the pandemic, civil unrest, riots, and much general anger) has not been easy for me or my family. Still, we are trying our best. I am just glad my mom never got COVID-19 as that would have also been an unpleasant experience; since the world changed in early March, all I've done (in essence; I won't reveal everything) is visit Disney Springs twice, go to grocery stores/Walmart/Target, get fast food or pick up food from places like Chili's & Olive Garden, and visit mom either in the hospital or in hospice. Considering how prevalent The Black Plague is down here, it's for the best I have not been in more locations than that. 2020 has been a real blur; today being the last day of July does not seem possible.
Honestly, this would have been posted earlier in the week... except that it's been a struggle figuring out how to close things out. OK, here goes nothing... like everyone else I do have regrets in life and in hindsight some things would have been done differently. Thank goodness I said everything that needed to be said to my mom while I could. She was a nurse for 33 years and knew many people throughout life-I know from the Internet alone that there are plenty who are broken up over this. It will always be upsetting the manner which the last few months of her life turned out yet I realize many did not have a mom as long as I did or had nice relationships with same... that said, knowing this was coming does not make the ordeal any better. Thankfully I have plenty of friends and family that can provide assistance if needed. She was a great mom and will always be missed by me.
